last night’s オカズ:
[HIGH:LAND (高嶋しょあ)] 水槽の中のぼくら
I don’t like choking… but I guess it kinda makes sense with her neck thingamabob… ;_;
a rant on checking my phone, from the perspective of myself:
You know those people you come across when you go outside? Walking around watching some dumb shit on their video? Or playing their little silly mobile game, flipping through Instagram/X/whatever the fuck you want, putting their phone away, and pulling it back out 30 seconds later because they have the attention span of a fucking gnat?
That’s you. Literally you. You are the thing that You hate. You fucking hypocrite.
What did you hope to find? You wanna read Zero Hedge and confirm the fucking world is falling apart? Yup, it is. Congratulations. The world will fucking end no matter what you do or don’t do. Wow.
You wanna open X (formerly Twitter) and look at dumb shit? You haven’t seen enough naked anime girls for a lifetime yet? You wanna read some political pundit’s take on dumb shit on shit that doesn’t matter? You wanna feel better about yourself seeing your views and positions justified? Pathetic.
You opened Discord and cycled through the few servers you look at. Wow, it’s the same fucking shit day in and day out, people playing mobile games, posting their rolls (or sparks, haha) and posting cute anime girls. You opened 4chan and see people are talking about the same worthless drivel about characters you don’t give a fuck about all to see if anyone gives a fuck about your dumb ass blog. Go kill yourself.
You know why you’re so damn unhappy with yourself? Because you’re too afraid to put in the work to become better. You’d rather run away from the difficult task at hand and find false solace to get away from the fact that you live in a sad sack of skin, fat, and bones. Anything to distract yourself from actually becoming who you want to be.
You changed your blog to ‘daily mahjong log’ and the moment you get a fucking 4th you say fuck this. You look at the scale in the morning and decide ‘oh i made no progress. might as well stuff myself full today again then’ and bitch about it later. Get your shit together.