I think I only like Rio because I have a friend who happens to like her… I don’t actually know anything about her… but her boobs are pretty big… mMmMmMm….
I got really mad at one of my junior co-workers cause I asked him to do (1) thing on 9/22, of which he said he’d start tomorrrow (9/23). I didn’t follow up and on 9/28 I was like hey can you do the thing and he was like ok and then turned in dogshit to me at 1:30 PM saying he had an appointment to go to and then go on vacation for the week. I thought it’d just be for this week through 10/2, but no, it’s actually through 10/9! I actually needed him to do more than just that one thing he didn’t do, either! the moral of the story is… micromanage people you don’t trust! ):
anyway rise and shine time to head to florida
This airplane had free in-flight wi-fi courtesy of Starlink! On the way into the corridor into the plane two people ahead of us were discussing, We know you wouldn’t drive a Tesla because of Elon Musk. But do you draw the line at using Starlink if it’s the only source of (free) wi-fi on the plane? To which the other replied Well if it’s the only thing available I guess it can’t be helped… but perhaps some people would stand defiant and go the flight without. Sucks if you have to be working on the flight…
Landed at about 17:30 to arrive at Disney’s Hollywood Studios at about 19:00. I missed visiting this park on my last visit to Orlando last year so missing most stuff here, but we got to ride Slinky Dog Dash and Rock n Roller Coaster. Slinky Dog Dash is a multi launch coaster for kids, but the way it lights up at night gets you excited for the ride! Then the Rock n Roller Coaster is slightly old but rethemed to Muppets this year or something. It’s decent and has some inversions (according to my friend it’s the only Disney ride with an inversion) and passing through California-related objects is fun but it’s just decent. Obviously, it can’t compare to Guardians of the Galaxy at Epcot.. .which we’ll be riding tomorrow…!
been stuffing my face into this this week. though i think her head is a little too low compared to where it normally is for all the other dakis. so it’s a little awkard. but humans are creatures of adaptation
really all i did was sub my runescape time for mahjong time. i’m not any more useful than I was before. but damn this game sucks cock lol
cope list but im too indifferent to detail review. perhaps that’s why i’m losing! noob. but for these games though it’s just everyone else wins hands before I can do anything and it’s like welp ok guess I lose
well time to finish up loose strings at work tomorrow and then we are off
hooray, hopefully i can have some fun. but as my brother likes to put it… you’re going to have fun whether you like it or not!
I was trying to think if this cover was safe for work or not… and you know what… I think it is!
did I lose all my readers by now? probably… but at least I still have you! hooray
Am I done being a sad sack of a human being yet? maybe… even though the deadline ™ was two weeks ago I still have some small things to do and it feels like the work never ends. I want to be happy and free! I deserve it!!!! But I still have more work to do lol so I just shut down internally, spiritually and mentally over like the last week and a half. Maybe start feeling like the haze was gone just a few days ago.
Is work burnout real? Most people would probably say just get over urself lol depression isn’t real. I actually fantasized a few times about just walking in to the office and throwing all my personal possessions into the trash and walking up to the top floor and jumping off the interior staircases some 30 floors into the cement. What a scandal it would be for my firm and my clients! What the hell are they doing over there? I’d even get to meet my dead mother and have her beat the shit out of me in the afterlife! And maybe some other people that have passed in my life that I miss too, though I imagine a few of them probably wouldn’t be too happy to see me anyway. HAHAHA
I was also thinking about dropping the upcoming tourney irl since I haven’t been playing tile game much lately… but I figured well I already paid like a hundred something tendies for it so fuck it just go and have fun… even though being there alone watching everyone else talk to each other isn’t that much fun… tfw antisocial…
I don’t think I’m missing too much even if I haven’t played that much. In fact, I’m 150 points away from 五段…! *famous last words*
Well it’s ok. I probably place well at all. But maybe I might! Last time I went to tourney I got inspired for a short time to keep trying… so maybe we can get positive energy out of it after…!
In an effort to make my pc harder to use to try to make myself doom scroll less i put all of my low rise figgies across my TVs. idk lol bored but technically I have more room for figgies if I do this. I did spend the last week and this week working like though. I do have to move my head a little bit for some items on the bottom of the screen. haha imagine this guy doing ur taxes
Sometimes I do think my life is worthless and meaningless. And you know what? It probably is… but it’s better for my own sanity and wellbeing if I pretend it isn’t. cause it’s all I got anyway.
okay uhh im still fat and im still behind on japanese but maybe some day i don’t have to be!!! don’t give up!! aw fuck i have work tomorrow too noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo ahh
winner winner chicken dinner you fucking did it you made it to the end youre the fucking best
i think in hindsight things aren’t so bad. but damn that was rough. a former co-worker that went to a private company texted me and was like hey we might be hiring soon would you wanna join and i was like damn man you picked a REALLY fucking good time to ask. i think i’ll give it a shot but if it doesn’t pan out that’s ok.
i like these unnecessary black body lines streaking across the body. is there a term for it?
uhhh someone told me to shut the fuck up cause i was pounding the keyboard to hard while trying to input numbers so i packed my shit up and went home in the middle of the day
this weeks dakis. actually having three new A&Jライクトロンリッチ covers on is extremely soft
comiket 108 was already ONE week ago. there’s no more comiket circle menus to or booth.pm relistings to doomscroll anymore… time to sign-out and unlearn the twitter formerly x doomscrolling habit (:
first shipment of books ready to go… there’s a figgie in it though so it’s a little padded in terms of cost. lol
I missed the JLPT N2 sign-up. I remembered at about 19:00 that it was the day to sign-up last friday… then the seats were all gone. well I can still learn Japanese without having signed up for the test… right? haha…
I think part of what makes me want to give up playing tile game is seeing people ‘go pro’ and fly out to all of the us tournaments and actually grind it out. seeing them take it seriously makes me think, man there’s no way in hell I could pull up to a tourney and think I have a fair shot at bouncing these people. but it’s not like you HAVE to win or prove anything to make it meaningful, does it? can we find joy in our own journey? just because other people are trying harder or have accomplished more doesn’t diminish what we do. in fact, if we flip it to other things in life we wouldn’t say something like, ‘oh, other people are richer than me, i’ll just stay poor’ or ‘oh, other people are more fit than me, i’ll just stay fat’. that’s stupid! but it’s not like I’d want to be a mahjong pro anyway. no way in hell a cunny gooner would be a good fit for a professional ™ mahjong organization anyway (:
yea good luck enjoying that journey LMAO
There’s probably better things I can quit… like this… there’s like no social connection that I have in this game. I think in my rant earlier I dream about how there’s a fantasy version of myself that doesn’t goof off at all and does everything he wanted to do and become. but is that really happiness? Like, yes, all of this shit is meaningless. But life itself is meaningless! therefore you can do whatever you want! the circle of life and meaning completes itself. I don’t know. I’m in an endless cycle of trying to convince myself of what I should be and what I am trying to become. We’ll see if we still want to play when we truly have free time. At least that’s what I said approximately 10 months when I last unsubbed last year. (:
I do want the hydra claw and toxic blowpipe though… ;_;
i dunno just get your priorities right! do your exercise then do your work and then have fun! not have fun and have fun and have fun and have fun and then oops you didnt do what you were supposed to do! just get the small win each day and then after a bunch of small wins you can become a big winner!
i think it’s better if I pretend to be positive and pretend my life is going well even if i’m actually stressing the fuck out about work and deadlines and trying to mentally/spiritually fail to escape from it by doomscrolling and playing games. I woke up at 07:00 and should have started work at maybe 07:30… but I goofed off until 08:45 instead on my pc! closing your eyes and pretending the problem isn’t there won’t make it go away! just get in and accept being uncomfortable with where we’re at instead of being like wow this shit sucks let me pick up my phone and try to find relief that isn’t there. i mean i’ll still do it probably… just do it less (:
I really liked this picture of Kisaki so I paid 500￥ for it! now you can have a copy of it too. hooray. heres the high quality version and the titty version in case you need that too. also that new sayuri girl looks pretty fucking hot. hope she dethrones kei next comiket hehe
ok better upload those workpapers i said i was gonna upload before i go to sleep. hope you have a nice day for me!!
