last night’s おかず:
[埋葬ノ底 (丑露ムキ)] 帰り道、排泄 // [埋葬ノ底 (丑露ムキ)] not elegance // [ヴィヴィ堂 (クマ作民三)] 絞って搾られ合理的どすけべエクササイズ
I think 丑露ムキ’s works might be a little too hard for me… but I still keep buying them! oops
my new earphones came in and… they make sound! congratulations
good eats! nabe soba and mentaiko mazemen. still fat. mMmMmM
https://native-store.net/en/products/detail/1456 is trying to shill their figure as a cup noodle topper. but what’s stopping anyone from using any other figgie that can lay down flat?
this weeks dakis. actually having three new A&Jライクトロンリッチ covers on is extremely soft
comiket 108 was already ONE week ago. there’s no more comiket circle menus to or booth.pm relistings to doomscroll anymore… time to sign-out and unlearn the twitter formerly x doomscrolling habit (:
first shipment of books ready to go… there’s a figgie in it though so it’s a little padded in terms of cost. lol
I missed the JLPT N2 sign-up. I remembered at about 19:00 that it was the day to sign-up last friday… then the seats were all gone. well I can still learn Japanese without having signed up for the test… right? haha…
I think part of what makes me want to give up playing tile game is seeing people ‘go pro’ and fly out to all of the us tournaments and actually grind it out. seeing them take it seriously makes me think, man there’s no way in hell I could pull up to a tourney and think I have a fair shot at bouncing these people. but it’s not like you HAVE to win or prove anything to make it meaningful, does it? can we find joy in our own journey? just because other people are trying harder or have accomplished more doesn’t diminish what we do. in fact, if we flip it to other things in life we wouldn’t say something like, ‘oh, other people are richer than me, i’ll just stay poor’ or ‘oh, other people are more fit than me, i’ll just stay fat’. that’s stupid! but it’s not like I’d want to be a mahjong pro anyway. no way in hell a cunny gooner would be a good fit for a professional ™ mahjong organization anyway (:
yea good luck enjoying that journey LMAO
There’s probably better things I can quit… like this… there’s like no social connection that I have in this game. I think in my rant earlier I dream about how there’s a fantasy version of myself that doesn’t goof off at all and does everything he wanted to do and become. but is that really happiness? Like, yes, all of this shit is meaningless. But life itself is meaningless! therefore you can do whatever you want! the circle of life and meaning completes itself. I don’t know. I’m in an endless cycle of trying to convince myself of what I should be and what I am trying to become. We’ll see if we still want to play when we truly have free time. At least that’s what I said approximately 10 months when I last unsubbed last year. (:
I do want the hydra claw and toxic blowpipe though… ;_;
i dunno just get your priorities right! do your exercise then do your work and then have fun! not have fun and have fun and have fun and have fun and then oops you didnt do what you were supposed to do! just get the small win each day and then after a bunch of small wins you can become a big winner!
i think it’s better if I pretend to be positive and pretend my life is going well even if i’m actually stressing the fuck out about work and deadlines and trying to mentally/spiritually fail to escape from it by doomscrolling and playing games. I woke up at 07:00 and should have started work at maybe 07:30… but I goofed off until 08:45 instead on my pc! closing your eyes and pretending the problem isn’t there won’t make it go away! just get in and accept being uncomfortable with where we’re at instead of being like wow this shit sucks let me pick up my phone and try to find relief that isn’t there. i mean i’ll still do it probably… just do it less (:
https://www.fanbox.cc/@kinokomushi/posts/12301690
I really liked this picture of Kisaki so I paid 500￥ for it! now you can have a copy of it too. hooray. heres the high quality version and the titty version in case you need that too. also that new sayuri girl looks pretty fucking hot. hope she dethrones kei next comiket hehe
ok better upload those workpapers i said i was gonna upload before i go to sleep. hope you have a nice day for me!!