last night’s おかず:
[あんみつよもぎ亭 (みちきんぐ)] サキュバス性徒会シコシコ執行部
i like these unnecessary black body lines streaking across the body. is there a term for it?
uhhh someone told me to shut the fuck up cause i was pounding the keyboard to hard while trying to input numbers so i packed my shit up and went home in the middle of the day
uhh back to work
cya
last night’s おかず:
[埋葬ノ底 (丑露ムキ)] 帰り道、排泄 // [埋葬ノ底 (丑露ムキ)] not elegance // [ヴィヴィ堂 (クマ作民三)] 絞って搾られ合理的どすけべエクササイズ
I think 丑露ムキ’s works might be a little too hard for me… but I still keep buying them! oops
my new earphones came in and… they make sound! congratulations
good eats! nabe soba and mentaiko mazemen. still fat. mMmMmM
https://native-store.net/en/products/detail/1456 is trying to shill their figure as a cup noodle topper. but what’s stopping anyone from using any other figgie that can lay down flat?
this weeks dakis. actually having three new A&Jライクトロンリッチ covers on is extremely soft
comiket 108 was already ONE week ago. there’s no more comiket circle menus to or booth.pm relistings to doomscroll anymore… time to sign-out and unlearn the twitter formerly x doomscrolling habit (:
first shipment of books ready to go… there’s a figgie in it though so it’s a little padded in terms of cost. lol
I missed the JLPT N2 sign-up. I remembered at about 19:00 that it was the day to sign-up last friday… then the seats were all gone. well I can still learn Japanese without having signed up for the test… right? haha…
I think part of what makes me want to give up playing tile game is seeing people ‘go pro’ and fly out to all of the us tournaments and actually grind it out. seeing them take it seriously makes me think, man there’s no way in hell I could pull up to a tourney and think I have a fair shot at bouncing these people. but it’s not like you HAVE to win or prove anything to make it meaningful, does it? can we find joy in our own journey? just because other people are trying harder or have accomplished more doesn’t diminish what we do. in fact, if we flip it to other things in life we wouldn’t say something like, ‘oh, other people are richer than me, i’ll just stay poor’ or ‘oh, other people are more fit than me, i’ll just stay fat’. that’s stupid! but it’s not like I’d want to be a mahjong pro anyway. no way in hell a cunny gooner would be a good fit for a professional ™ mahjong organization anyway (:
yea good luck enjoying that journey LMAO
There’s probably better things I can quit… like this… there’s like no social connection that I have in this game. I think in my rant earlier I dream about how there’s a fantasy version of myself that doesn’t goof off at all and does everything he wanted to do and become. but is that really happiness? Like, yes, all of this shit is meaningless. But life itself is meaningless! therefore you can do whatever you want! the circle of life and meaning completes itself. I don’t know. I’m in an endless cycle of trying to convince myself of what I should be and what I am trying to become. We’ll see if we still want to play when we truly have free time. At least that’s what I said approximately 10 months when I last unsubbed last year. (:
I do want the hydra claw and toxic blowpipe though… ;_;
i dunno just get your priorities right! do your exercise then do your work and then have fun! not have fun and have fun and have fun and have fun and then oops you didnt do what you were supposed to do! just get the small win each day and then after a bunch of small wins you can become a big winner!
i think it’s better if I pretend to be positive and pretend my life is going well even if i’m actually stressing the fuck out about work and deadlines and trying to mentally/spiritually fail to escape from it by doomscrolling and playing games. I woke up at 07:00 and should have started work at maybe 07:30… but I goofed off until 08:45 instead on my pc! closing your eyes and pretending the problem isn’t there won’t make it go away! just get in and accept being uncomfortable with where we’re at instead of being like wow this shit sucks let me pick up my phone and try to find relief that isn’t there. i mean i’ll still do it probably… just do it less (:
https://www.fanbox.cc/@kinokomushi/posts/12301690
I really liked this picture of Kisaki so I paid 500￥ for it! now you can have a copy of it too. hooray. heres the high quality version and the titty version in case you need that too. also that new sayuri girl looks pretty fucking hot. hope she dethrones kei next comiket hehe
ok better upload those workpapers i said i was gonna upload before i go to sleep. hope you have a nice day for me!!
recently in buying dumb shit:
maitetsu dakimakuras
kujis are scam. please don’t do them unless you really need the A prize
cute…
https://kinokomushi.booth.pm/items/8664213
Cute! I remember seeing her transformation scene on Twitter formerly X and her character design is so good… so let’s go get into Cure Arcana Shadow! Maybe I’ll watch her show after her daki comes in after October…
And she has a non-shadow form just announced! This means they can sell twice the toys and merchandise now, because you can’t just have the shadow one only! profits!!!!!!!!!
Comiket just ended so I think this should be the remaining majority of books to order. There’s a few things I’ll need to pick aftermarket like ともー’s 新刊 and R-18 kisaki tapestry, which I think I’ll have to fight people with money on Yahoo Auctions for, but I don’t think I want to spend more than 15,000￥ on it if I can…
<update> we did it thank you buy it now putters
DId you also know へんりいだ put out a book? I wouldn’t have known if I wasn’t on top of my stuff… I picked one off Yahoo Auctions for 2,000￥ but I have to hope the seller doesn’t cancel the bid because I’m shopping through a proxy…
We got to legend rank in poker chase! Except… most people playing are kinda doo-doo at it (just like me) and if it only takes me as someone who doesn’t know anything about poker only 200 games to get there… I don’t think it means much… but I’ll take it. At least the players in the higher room know what they’re doing a little bit. I probably won’t try to take it much further than this since I know there is a TON of stuff I don’t know about poker still… and I don’t really wanna get into it THAT deeply… kinda like mahjong…? haha…
The guy I talk to about poker is struggling to make it there and actually de-ranked…maybe he’s bad too? uh-oh…
It’s ok though. I think I’ve had enough horseshit in mahjong myself
wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
JLPT N2 signup starts on August 21… but I’m kinda behind on that… haha… we’ll revisit that…
With my bonus from work I thought I’d pay off my remaining student loans… but that would be too responsible of me!
https://bloomaudio.com/products/thieaudio-valhalla
wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
It’ll probably be like, yup, they’re IEMs, they sound pretty close to ThieAudio’s the Prestige LTDs that I have. wow great use of money man
I was also cleaning my room yesterday and went through my old journal. From like…. 2020-2022 when I was writing for a bit. I was sad that I still made $18 an hour, or wasn’t Saint 1 yet, or still struggled to read doujinshi well. I cried a little bit cause it was like, man, those things seem so trivial now Well, I’ve passed all of those things now… I’m sure the me of 5 years ago would gladly take where I am now in a heartbeat… but you know what? He didn’t give up… so I shouldn’t either…! Except we’re still both fat. hahahahah
peasant room. peasant time. HAHAHAHAHAHA
ok uhh idk what else to say fuck mahjong maybe ill see if i need it in my life later. maybe i’ll drop again from my irl tourney coming up. ok go to work dumb fuck
well it’s fucking 12:01 am and i can’t sleep cause im pissed at someone from work. lol
so since 7/26 i hauled ass through 7/31 to meet two big deadlines for two clients. We didn’t think I’d make it for my biggest client (“client A”) so we were coming up with contingency plans in case we missed and try to deliver what we can piecemeal… but I was able to figure shit out and get it to them and signed off by around 5:00 PM that day. hooray. for the other one “client B” the senior manager on that one had to fight with my senior manager on client A and be like plz let xsa work on this its due 7/31 and were like uhhhhhhhhh so is our stuff? but we relented. but we made that one and so we got a bunch of thank you e-mails from client B’s senior manager and the managing partner on that. hooray. now note on that thank you e-mail the guy says “let’s finish up the remaining items next week.” i think to myself ok sure i have some time next week to complete it. cool.
fast forward to fucking tuesday afternoon and the guy is like hey are you going to finish those open items? i say im working on the other stuff and then he throws down the ok let me know if i need to talk to the senior manager on client A to get you to finish this stuff. like bro you literally just four days ago were like good job team and now you wanna shit all over me. cool bro so much for a good job when you said NEXT WEEK you wanted it completed and we’re 2/5 days in to the god damn weekday and you wanna throw fists for my time. again. nice. maybe i should learn to be an asshole too. normally this would be fine if you only had two clients… but when you’re juggling like a whole bunch of other engagements at the same time getting pulled in 3 different directions when you’re trying to do one thing is extremely annoying.
i dunno i got my annual raise and bonus and its… ok but less than what i was expecting. my boss boss was like it’s ok when you make it to manager next year it should be a lot better… but sometimes it’s like damn… do i want MORE responsibility than what I already have…? I like to think maybe this shit isn’t worth it… but after the fact once our tax season is over it’ll be like ahh it wasn’t so bad. we can do it again. lol
a reminder of better times in my life
i think its times like these where you’re at fucking rock bottom… and you realize what things matter in life and what things dont matter in life. does being good at mahjong matter right now? does getting sick exp drops in runescape matter right now? nah… would having been healthy and fit matter right now? most likely… would having been diligent and on top of my work earlier this year matter right now? most likely…but it’s easy to lose sight of those things when the going is good.
remember THAT? lol that feels like ages ago already
so i dunno. what do i want? your sympathy? nah. i don’t really know how that helps. i do know there’s some folks out there who are like damn this guy lives a really good life buying cunny all the time. my life’s shit man. i’m fat, my job sucks, i suck at mahjong, i piss away all of my free time doomscrolling the internet. you should find someone else whos life is better and aspire to be like them!
like there’s these cute cunny shirts for c108 i’m gonna buy! but i’m still a fat sack of shit cause i’m too sloppy to stick to any of my plans for more than two weeks so when i wear them im just a fat loser! AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW
i guess like in the back of my mind i fantasize about what i could be if i really tried. like quit playing video games and quit looking for attention on the internet and quit looking for things to jerk off to (like seriously i have 700 unread doujins. and we add like 100-150 every comiket. why do we need to look for r-18 stuff on the internet???) and just digged the fuck in on playing irl. become the “successful” high(er) six figure earning jacked cunny chad i always wanted to be. (can one really argue that’s being successful? who defines that?)
i think i’m just scared. what if i stopped trying to be the xsa who “is good” at mahjong?
in the absolute scale of things, st2 ain’t shit. but neither is making high six figures, is it? especially when i know how much my clients make. lol
or the xsa who pisses away all his money erecting his (half) cunny goon cave? i couldn’t take that one away. i think removing that would like… unironically ruin who i am as a person if i strip that away. but doesn’t that mean i’m just as bad as the other people who claim their mental illnesses as their identities?
well, for everything else, there’s always a nice fap and nap. and back to hell we go when we wake up. lets fucking goooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
oops I forgot I had a blog! haha…
july 13: visited busch gardens williamsburg. It’s a nice and extremely well themed park. Pantheon is probably the best ride technically speaking but we ended up getting the most rides on alpengeist, which ir probably the best b&m invert
some food slops
and some animals. i said the eagles aren’t very free here but apparently they’re injured and not able to survive in the wild so they keep them here. oops
july 14
and… to atlanta!
This doohickey known as arieforce one is closing down on August 2nd, so we came to press f to pay respects! It’s a very good RMC with individually very strong elements, but the quadruple down element at the end is just way too much on my thighs. Very good and hopefully someone else will buy it as I think it’s worth keeping!
A visit to world of coke, where you can look at coca-cola memorabilia, and more importantly, drink a lot of soda! “New” coke is indeed quite different from original coke but it could definitely stand on its own, but it’s easy to see why fans of the original would not accept it replacing ‘old’ coke entirely. And the most important section where you get to try sodas from around the world. There were two black girls in front of the Beverly fountain and one was like hey try this flavor to the other girl and we could see the immediate disgust on her face after taking a sip. It’s my favorite flavor though!
came back to try to get some night rides on arieforce one. we got the last one but it ended up getting stuck… it was a good run though.
july 15
a visit to six flags over georgia. Overall the coaster line-up isn’t too strong but they have enough variety to make it worthwhile. Goliath is the best with it’s huge airtime moments but it does show its age with its rattle.
ok back to real life (:
I was getting pretty close to saint II… but I dropped the promo game… We’ll come back when I’m in a better place mentally…
I played a lot of runescape and my levels are going up! but i’m still fat and the work i have isn’t going away if i keep doing that (:
and c108 books on order so far!
i dunno. is it that hard to just serious the fuck up for like the next 50 days? tfw i dont know how to work on something for more than 20 minutes at a time before jumping to my phone and looking at something else and everyone is like hi status update on this please!!!! meanwhile i just go and fuck off because i dont wanna look at it and guess what it still isnt done
i mean if you think about it getting paid is way more important than all of this side stuff im doing. except maybe the health/fitness part. but not like i was doing that anyway in the first place. (:
why cant i get my priorities straight? tfw i adhd’d my brain into being unable to do anything anymore. well time to see if i still have a job in 2 months!!! lol
oops might’ve been a while… was busy finishing up some stuff on Friday the 10th for work and packing up for vacation…!
stow your suitcases verticaly nor horizontally
Heading to… King’s Dominion in Virginia!
oOoOooOoh
We spent the night yesterday (7/11) and a full day there today (7/12)
some pork slop and beef tri tip slop and a jalapeno sausage slop. I did opt for vegetables instead of more carby options for health purposes…!?
The top attraction here is Pantherian, an Intamin giga coaster. It’s the most intense one I’ve ever ridden where I experienced my first grey-out on a roller coaster, which is a temporary (partial) loss of vision from forces being exerted on the body. That said we did ride it 34 times today, which is the most I’ve ever ridden any coaster since it’s easy to get back in line / stay on the roller coaster since most people would ride it once and call it a day. It blends high speeds with aggressive low-to-the-ground twists and turns that make it really fun. The ride itself actually used to burn through wheels, so they spray the wheels with water while in the station to make them cool down more quickly. I’d say I like this more than Cedar Point’s Millennium Force, but not more than Carowind’s Fury 325.
Twisted Timbers is the park’s RMC, formerly a bad wooden roller coaster known as Hurler. When I initially watched a POV ride of it it didn’t seem like anything too special and overabuses bunny hills, but I ended up liking it more than I thought. I do highly prefer the back seat more as my thighs get slammed against the seat restraint way more in the front.
The other rides are mostly good but not amazing; I think I do like Kings Island a bit more but it holds its weight. I’d probably rank it as Rapterra> Reptilian> Dominator > Grizzly > Racer 75 > Backlot Stunt Coaster > Flight of Fear > Woodstock Express > Apple Zapple. I don’t count the S&S freespin as a roller coaster. :^)
winner winner chicken dinner you fucking did it you made it to the end you’re the fucking best
We did it! I was worried after throwing 20 points that I didn’t need to throw that it’d come back to bite us in the ass… but luckily we were able to hold on by quite a thin margin!
yippee
Our guy was a little scared to take the final set of matches… He was actually scheduled to play another session but had to grinch due to unforeseen circumstances. Shoulda thought twice about having a real life, huh? In any case I think most people would want to send their strongest player… but since our captain strongly insisted on equal games to the extent possible he was locked in. Hopefully it will be a good memory for him to reminisce on in the future in that we placed our final hopes and wishes in him and he was able to follow through…!
I joked in one of the streams that if we won I’d donate 5 tendies to the make a wish foundation. so here we are! thank you for the flow
If you didn’t make it or wished you had done better… now’s your chance to start preparing for next year’s league!
RIGHT FUCKING NOW! i like this clip a lot and play it to myself after i goofed off all day sometimes
start practicing now and develop your skills so that when you need it the most… you’re ready! not in 11 months when the next league starts… because then you’ll have to re-learn how to play the game again! also kind of saying this to myself for everything else I do :^)
well, it was a good run. see you next league!
these days i just stay up late and then get sleepy and go to sleep. am i getting old? maybe need to go back to powering down earlier. ahhhhhh. I haven’t been very self-reflective either just bouncing my free time between poko and tile game and internet.
we made it! the point gap of 180 is a little intimidating but I think we are all happy to just have made it this far. It was looking a little dicey for us earlier to be quite honest
new lifting shoes came in…. but i haven’t used them yet. why not????????????????????? GO OUTSIDE (tomorrow)
https://www.amiami.com/eng/detail/?gcode=FIGURE-187534
https://www.amiami.com/eng/detail/?gcode=FIGURE-187722
these two came out and actual figgie pictures look really good… but I didn’t pre-order it back when it was initially announced. now I can’t find it for order anywhere! just have to camp for restock i guess and see if buyfriend.moe actually works for notifications. I know some people like to wait until figgies bin to buy but if it doesn’t bin and instead is sold out then you’re hosed! it’s also technically better if the manufacturer sees the profits so hopefully they can be profitable and keep making more…
I found this salmon on sale and was like… what’s the catch? well… it expires in 2 days… which is acceptable to me! it was originally priced at $36.00 on the sticker underneath but I’ll take it for $7. we eatin fish today and tomorrow
I was trying to take a picture of the neighbor’s cat but it decided to hop down. oops
some pasta. I think it’s reasonably priced at $16. though I don’t believe we normally put bacon in pasta… but it works!
some sushi. we got baited because they have a yuzu fair for july but they didn’t have any of the special items. I will be contacting my lawyer
there’s a star rail collab with this dude and sparkle. tfw you rolled the male prize. I just left it on the table cause I dont want it. my brother was wondering what are some franchises where if you rolled a female one would be disappointed. one that came to mind would be dragon ball z where you probably want a super buff 6* goku or vegeta but you got someone lame like bulma instead. oops
since comiket is coming up i resorted all my doujinshi. though the idea is I’m supposed to update it when I order stuff so I don’t order duplicates. I previously kept the c107 stuff separate but since c108 is around the corner… it’s not special anymore. c107 was also 7 months ago! how time flies…
today was a day off so work for 4 days and then my brother and I are flying to virginia on caturday! ganbare
last night’s オカズ:
[おおまがの森 (すけぞう)] 南国ネコ耳少女とえっちできる島
what a freaking banger!!! i’ll need to go back and pick up the other two full color ones this artist did…
got kinda owned but oh well at least i didnt deal in
yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
https://www.dlsite.com/maniax/work/=/product_id/RJ01612428.html
https://xsa.moe/bin/RJ01612428.zip
the sequel to queens casino is out! it was a fun clear! my favorite stage was e2-6 hard trying to roll a successful grand spell to beat her up. the h content is honestly pretty weak so i’m just here for the gameplay
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