Author: XSA

last night’s おかず:

[あんみつよもぎ亭 (みちきんぐ)] サキュバス性徒会シコシコ執行部

i like these unnecessary black body lines streaking across the body. is there a term for it?

uhhh someone told me to shut the fuck up cause i was pounding the keyboard to hard while trying to input numbers so i packed my shit up and went home in the middle of the day

uhh back to work

cya

last night’s おかず:

[埋葬ノ底 (丑露ムキ)] 帰り道、排泄 // [埋葬ノ底 (丑露ムキ)] not elegance // [ヴィヴィ堂 (クマ作民三)] 絞って搾られ合理的どすけべエクササイズ

I think 丑露ムキ’s works might be a little too hard for me… but I still keep buying them! oops

my new earphones came in and… they make sound! congratulations

good eats! nabe soba and mentaiko mazemen. still fat. mMmMmM

https://native-store.net/en/products/detail/1456 is trying to shill their figure as a cup noodle topper. but what’s stopping anyone from using any other figgie that can lay down flat?

this weeks dakis. actually having three new A&Jライクトロンリッチ covers on is extremely soft

comiket 108 was already ONE week ago. there’s no more comiket circle menus to or booth.pm relistings to doomscroll anymore… time to sign-out and unlearn the twitter formerly x doomscrolling habit (:

first shipment of books ready to go… there’s a figgie in it though so it’s a little padded in terms of cost. lol

I missed the JLPT N2 sign-up. I remembered at about 19:00 that it was the day to sign-up last friday… then the seats were all gone. well I can still learn Japanese without having signed up for the test… right? haha…

I think part of what makes me want to give up playing tile game is seeing people ‘go pro’ and fly out to all of the us tournaments and actually grind it out. seeing them take it seriously makes me think, man there’s no way in hell I could pull up to a tourney and think I have a fair shot at bouncing these people. but it’s not like you HAVE to win or prove anything to make it meaningful, does it? can we find joy in our own journey? just because other people are trying harder or have accomplished more doesn’t diminish what we do. in fact, if we flip it to other things in life we wouldn’t say something like, ‘oh, other people are richer than me, i’ll just stay poor’ or ‘oh, other people are more fit than me, i’ll just stay fat’. that’s stupid! but it’s not like I’d want to be a mahjong pro anyway. no way in hell a cunny gooner would be a good fit for a professional ™ mahjong organization anyway (:

yea good luck enjoying that journey LMAO

There’s probably better things I can quit… like this… there’s like no social connection that I have in this game. I think in my rant earlier I dream about how there’s a fantasy version of myself that doesn’t goof off at all and does everything he wanted to do and become. but is that really happiness? Like, yes, all of this shit is meaningless. But life itself is meaningless! therefore you can do whatever you want! the circle of life and meaning completes itself. I don’t know. I’m in an endless cycle of trying to convince myself of what I should be and what I am trying to become. We’ll see if we still want to play when we truly have free time. At least that’s what I said approximately 10 months when I last unsubbed last year. (:

I do want the hydra claw and toxic blowpipe though… ;_;

i dunno just get your priorities right! do your exercise then do your work and then have fun! not have fun and have fun and have fun and have fun and then oops you didnt do what you were supposed to do! just get the small win each day and then after a bunch of small wins you can become a big winner!

i think it’s better if I pretend to be positive and pretend my life is going well even if i’m actually stressing the fuck out about work and deadlines and trying to mentally/spiritually fail to escape from it by doomscrolling and playing games. I woke up at 07:00 and should have started work at maybe 07:30… but I goofed off until 08:45 instead on my pc! closing your eyes and pretending the problem isn’t there won’t make it go away! just get in and accept being uncomfortable with where we’re at instead of being like wow this shit sucks let me pick up my phone and try to find relief that isn’t there. i mean i’ll still do it probably… just do it less (:

https://www.fanbox.cc/@kinokomushi/posts/12301690

I really liked this picture of Kisaki so I paid 500￥ for it! now you can have a copy of it too. hooray. heres the high quality version and the titty version in case you need that too. also that new sayuri girl looks pretty fucking hot. hope she dethrones kei next comiket hehe

ok better upload those workpapers i said i was gonna upload before i go to sleep. hope you have a nice day for me!!

recently in buying dumb shit:

maitetsu dakimakuras

kujis are scam. please don’t do them unless you really need the A prize

cute…

https://kinokomushi.booth.pm/items/8664213

Cute! I remember seeing her transformation scene on Twitter formerly X and her character design is so good… so let’s go get into Cure Arcana Shadow! Maybe I’ll watch her show after her daki comes in after October…

And she has a non-shadow form just announced! This means they can sell twice the toys and merchandise now, because you can’t just have the shadow one only! profits!!!!!!!!!

Comiket just ended so I think this should be the remaining majority of books to order. There’s a few things I’ll need to pick aftermarket like ともー’s 新刊 and R-18 kisaki tapestry, which I think I’ll have to fight people with money on Yahoo Auctions for, but I don’t think I want to spend more than 15,000￥ on it if I can…

遅くなりましたが夏コミお品書きです！
今回の新刊はブルアカのケイちゃんとイチャイチャしたりコスプレしてもらったりする大人向けの本になります！
スペースは8/16（日）【東A-18b Twilight Road】になりますのでどうぞよろしくお願いします✨✨#C108お品書き #C108 pic.twitter.com/7KZ9i3C5ov

— ともー@夏コミ2日目【A-18b】 (@tomorrow_0) August 14, 2026

<update> we did it thank you buy it now putters

DId you also know へんりいだ put out a book? I wouldn’t have known if I wasn’t on top of my stuff… I picked one off Yahoo Auctions for 2,000￥ but I have to hope the seller doesn’t cancel the bid because I’m shopping through a proxy…

We got to legend rank in poker chase! Except… most people playing are kinda doo-doo at it (just like me) and if it only takes me as someone who doesn’t know anything about poker only 200 games to get there… I don’t think it means much… but I’ll take it. At least the players in the higher room know what they’re doing a little bit. I probably won’t try to take it much further than this since I know there is a TON of stuff I don’t know about poker still… and I don’t really wanna get into it THAT deeply… kinda like mahjong…? haha…

The guy I talk to about poker is struggling to make it there and actually de-ranked…maybe he’s bad too? uh-oh…

It’s ok though. I think I’ve had enough horseshit in mahjong myself

wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

JLPT N2 signup starts on August 21… but I’m kinda behind on that… haha… we’ll revisit that…

With my bonus from work I thought I’d pay off my remaining student loans… but that would be too responsible of me!

https://bloomaudio.com/products/thieaudio-valhalla

wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

It’ll probably be like, yup, they’re IEMs, they sound pretty close to ThieAudio’s the Prestige LTDs that I have. wow great use of money man

I was also cleaning my room yesterday and went through my old journal. From like…. 2020-2022 when I was writing for a bit. I was sad that I still made $18 an hour, or wasn’t Saint 1 yet, or still struggled to read doujinshi well. I cried a little bit cause it was like, man, those things seem so trivial now Well, I’ve passed all of those things now… I’m sure the me of 5 years ago would gladly take where I am now in a heartbeat… but you know what? He didn’t give up… so I shouldn’t either…! Except we’re still both fat. hahahahah

peasant room. peasant time. HAHAHAHAHAHA

ok uhh idk what else to say fuck mahjong maybe ill see if i need it in my life later. maybe i’ll drop again from my irl tourney coming up. ok go to work dumb fuck

https://www.melonbooks.co.jp/detail/detail.php?product_id=3787254

https://twitter.com/kinokomusin/status/2084582088737788180

never kill yourself